The Work

I just finished 2 Byron Katie books and "The Power of Now."  They worked well together.  A client suggested them to me and reading them changed my life forever.  I am now meditating each morning and I actually enjoy it.  I can see the good and bad of everything and every situation.  I can choose the good because love is my true nature.  I really need to go back through every post I made before this and find statements on which to do inquiry.  I need to find any sticking points that are blocking my happiness and pouring out love.

One way I was able to pour out love was to take Scott's dressing up as a sign that he needs more love.  I cradled him in my arms last night, kissing his head and stroking his hair.  I didn't do it with the intention of getting him to change, but he did take off the clothes he was wearing while dressed up as Serena.  I would have been happy either way.  I love him as I love myself.  He is myself and so he must be loved in this way.  There is no other way to love others because they are all me, all a projection I create.

I am noticing that when I go to my true nature and love everyone without judgment, people are kinder to me.  Calvin mentioned wanting to buy and sell guns.  My usual response would say this is bad.  Instead, I inquired about what he liked about guns.  He said he likes shooting targets, not animals.  This felt okay to me.  He wants to modify and sell guns to make money.  This is okay too.  After we talked, he put his hand on my shoulder and thanked me for coming in.  He thanked me more than once.  This is the way of love.

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